If you were to snuggle up on the sofa to read; wrapping up in a warm blanket with a fire roaring in the fireplace, a glowing light over your shoulder… slowly opening the book, prepared to become engrossed in a tale from times long ago. Only to find each and every page is blank…
Then you would understand my state of mind. Life is good. The fire in my heart is burning brightly; the blanket around my soul offers comfort; my family’s love offers a warm glow.
Yet, I find myself staring blankly at the tv, the book, the computer screen.
Perhaps it is induced by the months on end of constant worry. The endless stress of my Li’l Trooper at war kept my mind churning, often in too many contrasting directions to come up with any coherent thoughts. But, it was constant motion.
… And now… My mind has shut down. I am able to complete only the most routine tasks of day to day life.
Last night I grilled a couple steaks, cooked corn on the cob and rolls. Mr. J was so sweet when he asked if I had fixed any potatoes or rice, maybe a salad? Any of which would have been a nice touch, had the thought of preparing them actually entered my mind.
I wonder how long I will muddle along in the fog before I am shocked back into the real world? I should be grateful for the lack of turmoil, content with the peace. Yet, I feel disconnected.
While my brain is on vacation… (no smart comments from the peanut section ) I will be here, but not as vocal.
I do have a special request. There is an awesome Soldier who could use our prayers right now. I do not want him to feel awkward, so I will not share all his woes. Would you please add Chris and his family to your prayers. They could really use some happy, some comfort, some joy in their lives right now.